For many college students, the concept of ‘home’ is fluid, and being sent home from university has proved stressful and confusing. At school, ‘going home’ can mean walking back to your room on campus, or getting on a plane to visit your parents. When studying abroad, I was excited to come ‘home’ to my host family’s apartment after spending a week moving from hostel to hostel in Italy. The place students consider their ‘home’ varies from person to person, and often has to do with where you feel the most stability and comfort.
Being sent home has felt surreal and frustrating for a number of reasons, but the main one being that I don’t really consider where I live with my family as ‘home’– BU’s Charles River Campus is. Of course, a big part of this is that I’ve spent most of my time away from Westerly since starting college. Another is the way my life away from campus has changed drastically over the last year, and is still changing.
At the end of last spring, my grandma became sick with pneumonia, and I drove down to Florida a day after moving out of Sleeper Hall to help my grandfather and the rest of my family as we tried to get our bearings. In early June, she passed away, and our whole family was thrown into an overwhelming and confusing time that hasn’t quite ended yet. The next month and a half were spent making arrangements for a service, packing up the house she and my grandfather shared, and figuring out where my grandfather would live. We ended up moving him into an apartment while my mom looked for a suitable house in Westerly. Luckily, she found one, and we officially moved in just a week before I boarded the plane for a semester in France.
I had left thinking that home would never be the same, and knowing the house I’d spent the last 9 years in would be sold before I got back, but that was okay because I didn’t plan on ever really living at home again. I was supposed to spend the semester in France, go right back to campus from JFK for a summer job and research, and then stay through the fall semester. I thought that at the most I would spend maybe three weeks living at home over the next year. Suddenly, I might be spending nine months at home.
Returning to the States, I spent the first two weeks alone in the house I grew up in, a place where I feel comfortable, but where I was the only person, and where few of my belongings were. After my initial quarantine to keep my Grandpa safe, I moved over to our new house, a place that was filled with boxes and air mattresses when I left. My mom and brother have spent the last couple months settling in and setting up this new house, trying to pack up our old one, and taking care of my Grandpa. I’ve come back to a home my family has built without me, and where my Grandpa is ‘the final authority’, as he says. Living in an unfamiliar place and having other people with expectations for me is very different from the independent life I’m used to, adapting to new environments that I can mostly make my own.
I never expected to miss Boston so much, but as a student, campus is where my entire life is at this point, and for those who aren’t entirely comfortable at home, college campuses are a source of stability and freedom. Many people view colleges as a ‘great equalizer’, where students from all different backgrounds have access to the same resources and earn the same degree. While this isn’t absolutely true, students can often find college campuses as a home where they feel more comfortable and have less external pressure than they might at home.
I’m lucky that moving and changing family dynamics are the only issues I face as I return home. Students across the country may well have been sent home to deal with a myriad of issues, having seen campus as a place to escape from financial instability, repression, or an overtly toxic home environment. In this time, it’s important for professors and classmates to consider that everyone’s situation is different, and to recognize that while we are all still taking the same classes and doing the same work, the resources and capacity to do work that students have varies from person to person.









